The entropy that surrounds me.

First of all, i like chaos. Well, organized chaos at least. I feel i should be upfront about this right away. If you know me enough, you probably know this already. I enjoy how unpredictable things can become. It makes you more aware of who you are and what you are. Convenience is the death of excitement. So chaos, even in a moderate dosage, allows for a quick wake up call. It makes your blood pump. It gives life, basically.

I am an organized person despite what i’ve just said. But i like my odds with chaos, confusion. The entropy of things around me. I don’t mind it, at all. I do have a problem with people and their lack of reality. Which, granted, can backfire and direct itself at me. But these shelled-out human beings with their faux notion of life give me a rash. I don’t gratuitously hate on people, i hate on their state of mind. You see a straight line, right? You can choose: follow it or don’t. The line itself means nothing, it’s the path that gives it meaning. I’d hate to live life from a third person perspective. Tiptoeing around everyone and everything. I prefer a face to face negative reaction that a pseudo-positive one at distance. But I do lack the required sensibility sometimes.

I pity them. Not on purpose. I just do. I feel that they are wasting time by being that way. It is an ugly thing to say, i know, but i can’t help but think it. I’ve had this song on loop in mind and in it, the singer goes:

This shouldn’t need to be so fucking hard
This is life on earth
It’s just life on earth
It doesn’t need to be the end of you, or me
This is life on earth
It’s just life on earth

Simple, just like that. It is just life, it shouldn’t be this fucking hard. For anyone. But i get it, oh man, i get it. I’ve had my share of “FUCK YOU WORLD”. Well, sometimes i still do. But believe or not, i’m in a good mood. We all have to deal with shit and sometimes that gets to be too much. So i can understand that.

But that’s where entropy comes in. Technically used as a function that measures the state of disorder in a system, it comes so handy to explain when things go bad. The inevitability.

It suits different scenarios. For example, it can also mean the measure to assess the loss of information in a message or transmitted signals. When you fuck up.

Well, i embrace entropy. I learn from it. It is inevitable.

But sometimes, you gotta be prepared to grab that broom and wipe it all. The confusion, the mess, the disorder… You got to!

All is good, all is well.

Santiago Roque

Author: santiago roque

I can predict the future. If given the right topic. Often confusing, i am mostly me on emotional steroids.

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